Everytime after I have done something, say some words probably almost always, five to ten seconds later I will reflect upon it. Like my mind suddenly woke up and starts gauging my actions. And most of the time I feel so embarrassed and faked out by myself that I very so often will hate myself, that moment for a dwelling period of time. Unhealthy. But no, I can’t seem to learn the lesson and think and wake my mind up before I do things.
But somethings happen because it was meant to. They say you are not growing up if you look back and have nothing you regretted doing. I am growing up. Guess. Good things still happens so I am doing fine.